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Name: Sarah
Birthday: 4/16/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Acting, modeling(when I'm not at college), bike riding reading, improving myself
Expertise: ummm yeah. get back to me in 20 years
Occupation: Student
Industry: Mount Holyoke
Message: message me
Member Since:
9/19/2004
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| Ok, I realize this might mean I'm jumping on a band wagon, but I never use xanga anymore...except for entertainment. (Some of those featured blogs are HYSTERICAL) So. A new blog home that I will hopefully use more:
www.frenchiefrenchfry.blogspot.com
Find me there!
I will of course, keep faithfully stalking all of my xanga friends :)
Love!
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| I find something soothing about cigar smoke. I’m not sure what it is really. Maybe it’s a memory from a past life, though I’m not sure I believe in those. Maybe it’s a reminder of my beloved grandfather, though he smoked pipes. When I was very little I would crawl up on his lap, and he would wrap his arms around me, and I felt so loved, so protected. Nothing in the world would ever harm me, because he had his arms around me. It’s how I imagine a hug from God must feel like. He smoked pipes, I suppose as a concession to someone, my mother perhaps, to not smoke cigarettes. And the smell of pipe tobacco makes me feel four years old again; safe on my grandpa’s lap. The smoke from a cigar as it curl through the air look beautiful to me, soothing and safe. There’s not a lot of safety in this world, there’s not a lot of comfort. Especially for a single twenty-two year old. But cigars soothe me. They remind of safe hugs, of perfect moments. I think, I know, that most of life’s harm can be un done with a simple hug.
Cigars smoke soothes me.
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| Some days, I think life is spinning wildly out of control. I feel less focused, less driven then I did a few years ago. And maybe that's because I don't know what I'm driving to anymore. My parents were here this weekend(which was fabulous, mainly because they're pretty freakin' awesome people to hang out with) and I was complaining about how after graduation I have to figure out what to do with the rest of my life and they said that I just had to figure out what to do with the next 2-3 years of my life. And I like that. It makes it less scary. I want so much, and I want to do and see so much that sometimes I get overwhelmed with it. I'm good at the 2-3 year plan. I'm not good at the life plan. I'm not worried...really. I know that God will take care of me. I know that I'll eat, and sleep, and life will be ok. I just...
I want it all.
A great career, great friends, nice kids, loving husband. And I want to do it all with style (you know me, got to make it interesting) So the next time some one asks me what I'm doing after graduation I think I'll just smile and say
"I'm going to do it all"
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| I'm sitting on my futon with Kat and Linds and drinking some champagne. We just finished wrapping Colleen's bridal shower presents. And it's pretty much heaven. And it makes me sad that I won't be able to do this next year as easily. But, it makes me appreciate it all the much more. :)
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| You know what would be friggin' awesome? If they could bottle motivation. I think I used all mine up in high school 
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